Okay, so I was in Owatonna for over a week for the SCFF (fair). I took the week off because I love the fair and you can't just go one day so might as well take the whole week off. I stayed the whole week at my sister and brother-in-laws house. I know that fish and guests start to stink in three days (Farmer's Almanac) but I stayed for the whole week anyway. I know my brother-in-law was probably getting sick of me at that point but he didn't say anything. (Thanks Guy, I know you read this sometimes.)
Anyway, I get home after not seeing Ryan for a very long time. He was in Canada while I was in Owatonna and he asks me, "So Jen, have you had enough of your family for awhile? Have you got it out of your system?" I sort of sat there for a couple seconds, my mouth dropped open, literally, shock shooting out of my eyes like daggars and then I said, "Ryan, you don't 'get your family out of your system.'" He seemed to think that seeing my family for a week would make me glad to be home but in fact it's quite the opposite. It makes me very sad because I have to go back to Wisconsin and leave my family. When I'm with them I have so much fun, even when they make me mad and all I can think about is what I'm missing when I'm not home.
Ryan comes from a very small family and his aunt and cousins on his mom's side (one aunt, 2 cousins) live in Ohio. They never go see them, ever. The last time Ryan saw them was on our honeymoon, five years ago. So he doesn't really get it. Doesn't understand how being with one's family could be fun and create sadness when they aren't around. It seems to me that is the real tragedy. That he doesn't get it and that I, loving my family, have to be so far away from them.
I know and have met many people who do not have a family or they have a family but they don't get along with them, dispise them, hate them or only get together with them at Christmas or Thanksgiving. Some of those people wish their circumstances were different and some do not. The ones that want to change their families envy my relationship with my family. Which makes me sad because I have the greatest thing in the world (my opinion naturally), a very close family, and I am not even around to enjoy it. That's like winning the lottery but stuffing all your winnings in a mattress and never spending it. What a waste.
Note: I realize that not everyone wants a close family and that is fine because not everyone can be the same or we'd all similar and that would be boring and unoriginal.
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